Pretty much every facet of my life is hard now, but that's why I need to find any kernel of good and trumpet any accomplishment, which is what we do on 'Celebrate'.
This week, I went shopping all by myself for the first time in over 9 months. Last July, I was hospitalized, and for the following 3-4 months, I was too sick to leave my bed. Then I got a bit better and hubs started driving me out and about. But he worried about me and followed me around in stores like a scared puppy. After his sudden death (on March 3), my friends just brought what I needed, or I walked to the tiny shops in our neighborhood. However, they have only very basic stuff (food & drinks), and these days I need unusual things, like notebooks, binders, folders, and pens to write notes to myself. (I have a hard time remembering things unless they're written down due memory impairment caused by arteriosclerosis).
But finally, the piles of 'to-do' notes to myself, important info (like how to get on Blogger), and the lengthy medicine schedules were all over the couch, and the chaos was working my last nerve! I needed folders to organize things. So I got in a taxi and went to the mall -- all by myself.
Then what do I find? The biggest store in the mall that had anything you could want (clothing, shoes, hair products, stationary, notebooks, etc.) was shut down, all windows covered up, and no people anywhere around! I don't know if it's permanent or what, but dang that was a shock! Everything else at the mall is clothing stores or restaurants...
Then I remembered a place at another shopping strip and got a taxi to take me there. After getting what I needed, I had to get home. But money is running short with me these days, so I decided to walk. It's probably about one and a half miles. Not so much for a normal person, but quite a challenge for sick, chubby, out-of-shape, and rather pitiful me. :P
But I did it! I literally walked home -- through other neighborhoods, on sandy stretches beside highways where there's no sidewalk, and even squeezed past overgrown, thorny bushes that I had to disentangle from my clothes -- ouch!
The doctors tell me that exercise is important, but sit-ups/push-ups, etc. is hard and too painful (since I have chronic back & knee problems) -- but at least I finally did something! It's time for me to be brave and do difficult-but-necessary things, right?
I'm a little bit proud of myself. ;)
My kind and wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog
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Celebrate the Small Things. To be part of this blog hop, all you have to do is visit the Celebrate page on Lexa's Blog for the rules, and then post every Friday about something you're grateful for that week. It can be about writing or family or school or general life. This is the funnest and easiest blog hop ever! (Originated by VikLit)
Sorry that my post went up late today. With all the problems in my life right now, I consider it a minor miracle if I remember to post at all. (Or if I remember how to access Blogger in the first place...)
In the middle of the difficulties in my life atm, two people are always by my side, ready and willing to help in any way they can: Lucy and Alaa. They got a lawyer to take me to a government office so I could register my husband's death, they went with me to my bank so I could work out some difficulties (cancel cards, get new cards), they call every day to see if I need anything, and if I do, they immediately schedule a time when they can come pick me up and take me where I need to go. I truly don't know how I'd manage without them. Their kindness and loyalty will remain in my heart forever.
Friends are the BEST!!
My kind and wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog
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One of the things the doctors said I'm supposed to do to get healthy again is exercise. However, with a permanent slipped disk and chronic knee problems, not to mention my frequent dizziness (due to arteriosclerosis and brain clots), typical exercise is off the table. And besides, yucko!
However, I enjoy cleaning. Well, not really the physical labor so much -- who likes that? -- but I love looking at a clean house and being proud of the work I did to get it "ship shape." So my way of exercising is to clean rooms, plus I cook almost every day, and then do all those darn dirty dishes, of course!
And let me tell you, there's plenty to clean around my house since I spent so many months in bed, and my late husband was never very good in the "housekeeping" department.
Plus, I now have new spackle, paint, and a roller. Yay! I'm just waiting another month or two till I feel steady enough to climb a ladder, then WATCH OUT disgusting, dirty walls -- I'm gonna get you!
My kind and wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog
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I'm very, very sad to report that my husband died this week. He was only 50, and he didn't have anything wrong with him. He was literally fine one day and gone the next.
I'm afraid I wonder whether it may have been due to the stress of taking care of me for the last 8 months. While I'm not very ill, my memory is quite shaky... I have good long term memory, like I remember everything before the last 5 years pretty clearly, but my short term memory is defective due to my arteriosclerosis and the hemorrhages in my brain that occurred 8 months ago. The hemorrhages are lodged in the area of short term memory and that makes it difficult to me to recall the details of day-to-day living. Every day I wake up and only remember a few of the things (mostly very big/unusual things) that have happened in the past weeks/months. The 'regular stuff' of daily living just seems to vanish overnight. This is obviously hard for me to handle and it was hard for him, too.
It's very sad that he's gone, but at least he's at peace now and has no more problems to worry about.
I'm still here, but I wish my life would get easier. I still have to take a bunch of meds every day because of the brain problems and must now try to deal with everything on my own. Please send me your wishes for good luck and improvement -- Lord knows I need as much of both of those as I can get.
My kind and wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog
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While I can't exactly celebrate my "illness" (brain clots and short term memory loss), there are some benefits I've discovered! Last week, I celebrated that hubs bought a new flatscreen TV for us, and it's much easier on the old eyeballs than the old TV set. Yay! Now I've noticed that there are no such things as "repeats." You know -- that movie or sitcom episode that was great the first time, but gets annoying when it comes on again and again? Well, the upside to my condition is that all TV programs are new to me! That Seinfeld episode that I'm sure has been on plenty of times before, now totally makes me giggle and laugh like it's the first time I've seen it. Same with movies. Yes, the movies that get repeated several times on a channel before the network puts on new ones -- no problem here! I can watch that sucker fifty times and won't remember it in detail the next time it comes on.
Overall, I'm in pretty good physical health, have a great husband, wonderful friends, and a new TV. What more could I ask for? :)
My kind and wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog
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